Last month, the students gave me the Silver Shield Award. The student who nominated me announced to the entire student body that I had suffered a terrible tragedy this year, but that you would never know it because I come to school in a great mood every day. Last night - on Christmas night - my facebook status simply said Life is awesome, and I got an incredibly kind post from a cousin explaining it was awesome because I choose to look at that positive.
I'm going to admit a few things about all of this...
1 - I know this is one of my greatest strengths. I am a happy person. I am optimistic and energetic 99.9% of the time. I know that people value that, especially the older I get.
2 - I never go more than five minutes without thinking about the fire and our loss and, honestly, feeling insanely sad about it. I am on the brink of tears more often than people realize. I am so deeply sad - sadder than I have ever in my life felt - and it doesn't seem to get any easier with time.
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